BERT2011 (Bugger, Estrogen Receptive Tumor)….

Metastic breast cancer at 38

“Here we go again, on my own” (white snake lyrics )

on October 24, 2014

It’s been a long time since my last “confession”.. Post apologies everyone I have been ridiculously busy building my own home… Literally.

For those who don’t know me I’ll begin today with a quick recap, but ultimately today’s post is to give an update to my friends and family on my current health and treatment.

2011 – diagnosed stage 2 breast cancer
2011 got married
2012 – IVF
2012- chemo
2012 -bought a bungalow to demolish and full a life’s dream of building my own home and try and put cancer behind me
2013 – fell down broke my hip – total hip replacement
2013 – found out hip was week due to a tumour… Breast cancer had Metastasised to my bones… Stage 4 cancer (Incurable)

Which brings 2014… Big year this year.

Demolished bungalow, began building… Separated from husband, getting divorced..
started Hormone treatment for cancer, failed, stared clinical trial failed…

Next Friday.. I will start Chemotherapy again.

So… here we go again.. This time on my own.. šŸ˜„… Hopefully with the help of my family and friends… But certainly if you’d have asked me 3 years ago where I’d be right now this is Not what I had in mind!!

The details… I will go for my first Chemo next Friday. And current assumption 6 lots once every 3 weeks as before.. I will loose my hair AGAIN!! My chemo this time is Taxotere, it will be given intravenously and I’ll most likely require steroids with it too… Pretty scared that this will make me look bloated.

How to I feel ?…. PISSED OFF!!!, scared.. Chemo has come 12 months early than I was anticipating.. Scared that this means my life is shorter. Upset that I will loose my hair again.. It’s really shit loosing your hair I won’t lie.

I can write no more to you all today as I now can’t see the screen for tears… But I promise I’ll be back soon… the Thorpey MOJO has been challenged this week and I need a few days to get back on track…

be right back peeps xxxx


12 responses to ““Here we go again, on my own” (white snake lyrics )

  1. Bridget says:

    I wish I could take away some of the pain. No-one deserves to go through all of this. You are immensely strong to have dealt with it so far. I believe if anyone can survive this – you can! You are a very special person. Keep going with your dream home – & max out on all the help you can..!.Look after yourself – you are the most important person. Much much love xxxxB

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  2. paula says:

    Hi Jane – you are not alone – ever. Family and friends 440 people following this…… Would you want me to visit yet? I don’t know how you are keeping going. Take care. Paula x

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  3. Kelly says:

    A true insriration Jane.. Whatever the future holds you will battle it head on with courage.

    It’s a blip!…. You’ve got a house to build!

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  4. I’m sorry šŸ˜¦

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  5. Michael Spencer says:

    Hi Jane. Gutted for you on all counts, but you’re so strong and I’m sure the good times will outnumber the bad again soon.
    Best wishes,
    Michael S
    x

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  6. Diane Cowen says:

    Oh Jane you poor thing, my god why is this happening to you, on a better note your house looks fantastic xx

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  7. Louise says:

    ….have no words…..well not ones I can post on here anyway!

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  8. Julie says:

    My dearest Cousin
    I can’t begin to imagine what you are going through. But what I can say is you were my inspiration when I needed someone to look to , to find the strengh that I needed to get through what I had too. You are still my inspiration. Your strength and go girl power inspires me that you manage to go on even when the going gets tough. I cant take it away or make it better. But you are always in my thoughts and prayers and will always be here for you. All my love always xxxx

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  9. Sarah says:

    You are definitely NOT on your own. We are all here rooting for you and I know once you’ve picked yourself up off the floor and dusted yourself down you’ll be able face this new challenge with the 110% that you always put into everything. So sorry you’ve got to go through crappy Chemo again. Life is so cruel and unfair Jane, you really shouldn’t be having to go through any of this. Sending you positive vibes and lots and lots of love and hugs, Sarah.xxx p.s house looks fantastic!!!, can’t wait to see it soon and come and help you get in it!! xxx

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