BERT2011 (Bugger, Estrogen Receptive Tumor)….

Metastic breast cancer at 38

Rnd 4 all done!!! 2 to go

Well that’s 4 down now, really pleased… Went well yesterday no problems with anything, clinic was a bit behind schedule but all went well.

The district nurse has just been to give me my gcsf injection to boost my bone marrow to stimulate my white blood cells.. So that’s it now just recovery for 3 weeks then off we go again.

Feel ok today, bit tired as didn’t get much sleep last night… My face is doing its usual red flush thing.. Lasts about 2 days… Look like a tomato!!! Especially when I’ve got my baldy out.

Bizarrely my hair started growing back last week, but then fell out again on Sunday… Balding patches now..

Weathers taken a sorry turn so no sitting outside this week 😌… Nothing much planned this week rest and that’s about it.

Have a good week all, feel free to pop in for coffee anyone xx


Normal life for a few days

It’s so nice today to just be able to kid myself that’d nothings wrong and normal life has resumed.. To not have to go to the hospital is such s relief..

Picked up an iPad to take with me whilst in hosp and on chemo… Ok so I used this as an excuse.. But I do think it might keep me sane.. Sitting in the hops for 4 hours yest was dreadful.. Poor Andy..

I feel so sorry for him, wasn’t exactly how we planned to start our first year of marriage.. He must be so fed up about it… All credit tho he’s been amazing.. Xxx


This week I’ll be known as the human Guinea pig

Day 2 of Cancer.. Had a 2 hour meeting today with my breast care nurse, Ann… She will be with me now all the way through… Thankfully she’s very patient as Andy and I fired questions at her like a tank!! After having woken up that day with a more positive attitude I was confident ” I can beat this”…. A few hours later reality kicked in!! I don’t think I had quite comprehended what was in store for me and Andy and I had thought this was something that I could get through in a couple of months and life would go back to normal… I realised quickly this isn’t going to be the case….

First step for me is a lumpectomy, where they will operate and remove the lump plus some surrounding tissue… Alongside this they will conduct a sentinel node biopsy on my lymph nodes… Here’s where I start praying as if they find these clear then I am in a good position and they won’t have to remove them…. Just typing this frightens me as I know I won’t be that lucky…

Surgery recovery is scarying me, I’m a wimp at the best of times and from what I can understand I’ll be useless for a while .. I’m so used to being self sufficient I’m really going to find this hard… I guess my body will decide for me :-(… We’ll have possible 3 week wait then for the pathology reports to come back…

Most likely I’ll then be in for 6 treatments ( treatment.. Ha what a laugh.. Treat has nothing to do with it!!) of chemotherapy, 1 every 3 weeks… 18 weeks of he’ll isn’t that going to be fun!! No hair and feeling like crap.. Looking forwards to that then!

Then after a 3-4 week break I’ll start the radiotherapy .. Can’t be worse thatn chemo I guess.. Can it?

Well that was day 2… Reality hit hard…

Day 3 … Time for more tests.. So far.. Ultrasound, mammogram, biopsy.. Now it’s time for an MRI… Let’s hope this gives them a good picture of Bert ( our pet name for my tumour) in order to get rid!!

8am.. Rotherham hospital.. Canula fitted and bloods took to check my kidney function … Wow these needles don’t get any easier… Had to ask for the canula to be covered over ax the nausea comes every time I catch sight of it … Hooe this gets easier to handle or chemo is going to be hell!! Finally then at 11:45 I go in for the MRI .. Wow very noisy and uncomfortable.. Face down .. 35 mins of random noises and all done… Maybe I can handle this that was bearable

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